Trusting Life

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June 23, 2009

Passport application and interview completed. We pick up Hannah's new passport tomorrow morning in Aurora, CO. The woman who helped us was nice and friendly and supportive. Everything happened with ease and grace. I had more than enough information to support the process.

As we climbed into the car to drive to Longmont, Colorado, I thought about how much time I had spent worrying about this. I had two nights when I woke up in the middle of the night. I began to think about the worrying. Had the worrying supported this process at all? Did the worrying get us to the passport office on time or did I waste precious time on something I had no control over? All I really could do was show up with the requested paperwork and be in the moment of the Yes or No.

I asked myself, why can't I just trust life to bring me my highest good?

Yes, I have experienced loss of loved ones and some of my dreams have not come true. I have had my share of disappointments. But, I also have had a pretty amazing, magical life. I have received some strong intuitive thoughts that have led me to jobs, friends, homeschooling my kids, and of course, to the jonas brothers concerts with my daughter.

I ask myself, "Why can't I trust life to support me? Why must I worry and fear that things will not work out?" None of the worry or fear actually brings me good stuff and it actually takes me out of enjoying the present moment.

So, here are two pieces of evidence today that I can trust life.

1. Hannah and I drove through the night to get the passport. We arrived 30 minutes early. Everything went smoothly at the office. It was challenging to drive, yes. But, Hannah stepped up to the plate and drove for 1 1/2 hours following the directions I had for her. I had an opportunity to let go and trust her. Early in the morning, when she was asleep, I listened to myself and pulled over to sleep for 45 minutes in the parking lot of a Comfort Inn. I saw an amazing sunrise through the rearview mirror. I heard birds chirping as I sped along the highway. All is well.

2. I arrived in Longmont, Colorado and realized that I had my friend's UPS address and not her home address. She is in Hawaii. I called her. She answered her phone and gave me her home address and directions. I easily found the key, entered her lovely home and had a comfortable bed to sleep on for an afternoon nap.

Why am I holding so tightly onto the details of life when I have so much proof that I am supported?

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I have questions for the next part of my journey. Will I attract enough money to do this? Will we make it to the concerts? Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah...

As I write this another question comes to my mind. Am I here to watch the movie of my life or am I here for the ride?

I choose the ride.