Day 84 of 100 days of Blogging
GUEST Blogger, Friday
GUEST Blogger, Friday
New Beginnings by Nancy Kobel
Wake up, our
ship has been ice-bound long enough, the time has come to sail the open seas. ~
Rumi
I could see
it so clearly in my mind’s eye: a
beautiful garden, rich with colors that expanded beyond the horizon. I was standing at the entrance of the
garden, ready, with an open heart (and a little bit of anxiety) to embrace the
journey. It wasn’t an easy road to get
to this garden, to have the garden gate behind me. There were a lot of tears, a lot of pain, a
lot of challenges, a lot of courage, a lot of prayers, a lot of healing and a
lot of help and support along the way.
Paulo Coelho’s quote in the introduction to The Alchemist, writes: “the path of the personal calling is no
easier than any other path, except that our whole heart is in this journey.”
The path in
front of me is purely my own and the garden represents new beginnings in so
many ways, so many possibilities of my future.
I glance behind and am amazed at my journey, some of the tears and pain
feel like such a distant memory yet I know how much my past makes this vision
that much sweeter.
In the
present, I have to admit, I was a little nervous with the start of this
week. Transitioning from the gift of
being able to play in the world of ‘being’ for 3 months to a more structured
work opportunity and the start of school and activities for my kids. I really enjoyed the freedom of being, it was
challenging to embrace after leaving the corporate world in May. I had to talk myself out of the desire to have
an extensive checklist of things to do and be kind to myself if I didn’t get
everything done. I had to revisit my own
values and determine what was truly important to me and start making decisions
about how I spent my time based on those values. Having the time was a gift and gave me the
opportunity to dive deep into where I was holding myself back from living an
abundant life.
I thought I
had this abundance going really well – so many things were flowing my way, a
work opportunity that seemed ideal, new clients, an amazing vacation in August,
the completion of 2 certifications, an amazing class with an awesome coach and
time to truly enjoy my children and the activities in their life without stress
(and more). I was full of amazement and
gratitude as I continued to work and move forward.
Boom – It
was as if the universe, God, needed to get my attention and everything that was
coming my way ended up in the land of ambiguity – the clients, the work
opportunity, the vacation all ended up in chaos and uncertainty. It turns out my ‘ask’ button was broken…or
stuck from non-use. I was on a coaching
call – “does anyone have any questions?”
Nothing, my mind was completely blank, and I tried to think of a
question but still nothing. I couldn’t
come up with anything yet I so wanted to talk -- this was a stretch for me and
one I wanted to tackle. “Ask if you
need help.” Asking God, the universe,
the angels, Mary, etc., was easy as my trust in the support of the higher
realms was firm and unshakable. I knew
it was always there, that I was never alone.
Asking people was a whole new territory and one I needed to start
playing in more, one that would open me up to deeper connections, vulnerability
and more challenges (and joy) along the way.
We weren’t meant to travel this journey alone, without help. Giving and Receiving is a dance for both the
giver and the receiver. It is not one
sided. What a gift it is to allow
another to give and graciously receive.
We need to be open to asking and open to receiving, especially if we are
constantly giving and giving and giving. We know the joy in giving but do we know the
joy in receiving? I know I am not alone in this mindset of being
strong, independent, responsible, doing everything myself while giving
everything I have, thinking I am not worthy to receive help, to receive love,
to receive what I need and desire. I am
excited to release that belief and see what is ahead. It has been new territory and I may falter
along the way but I am ready to continue playing more with the feminine energy
of receiving in balance with the masculine energy of giving. I have been out of balance for far too
long…
“Put me in
Coach – I am ready to Play!”
Nancy Kobel,
CPC, ELI-MP
Nancy is founder and CEO of Leader Inspired. She is a certified professional life and
leadership coach and a certified Energy Leadership Master Practitioner,
speaker, author and workshop facilitator.
She is trained through the Institute for Professional Excellence in
Coaching (iPEC) and is passionate about helping women who feel stuck in the
‘shoulds’, discover their true
gifts, release what is holding them back
and reclaim their feminine power, so
they can lead a life they love. She has
spent over 20+ years in the corporate world, with a background in leadership
development (and engineering) and is a contributing author in HMV: Inspired
Voices and part of the HMV: Feminine
Leadership project. She is looking
forward to speaking at the On Purpose Woman Conference in September, her
topic: “Reclaim your Tiara”.
YOU GO NANCY! AWESOME!
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